The memory of a love that never was

Dumbledore: "I use the Pensieve. One simply siphons the excess thoughts from one's mind, pours them into the basin, and examines them at one's leisure. It becomes easier to spot patterns and links, you understand, when they are in this form."

Harry: "You mean... that stuff's your thoughts?"

Dumbledore: "Certainly."

— Albus Dumbledore to Harry Potter^[src]

The Pensieve is an object used to review memories. It has the appearance of a shallow stone basin, into which are carved runes and strange symbols. It is filled with a silvery substance that appears to be a cloud-like liquid/gas; the collected memories of people who have siphoned their recollections into it. Memories can then be viewed from a third-person point of view.

(from the film Harry Potter)

For me, this blog is my "Pensieve". My memory container. I will imagine taking a certain memory out of my head and putting it in a bottle and just revisit it whenever I like.

This is the first time I will be doing this. Maybe it's also a good idea so I will let it out of my thoughts. I have already moved on since this was 7 years ago. I just wanted to write it down and now is the right time to do so.

I have been in a relationship with someone younger than me when I was 18 years old. We were neighbors and friends when we were younger, but not the "kababata" kind. We became friends when we first moved to our house then. I was still in high school. Then we lost touch. But because of technology, we got close, texting each other and such. I used to have a crush on his friend. I think that's how I became close to him. His friend was the good looking one. He, on the other hand, was smaller than me and not being mean, was not really in the good looking department but he was also not bad looking and he has a good heart. Through all those texting and talking, we eventually became closer. He then expressed intent in courting me and I didn't know how to respond. It just happened one day, it just became "us".

technology vs real face time

The social network can be a bit scary if you are not too careful. Not everything that's in that little head of yours can be said aloud so sometimes, we decide to write it down in ways like this blog, a status update on facebook or twitter. A lot of people do that, mostly on twitter. Tweeting about their current feeling, their rants, what they're doing at the moment, what's been going on in their lives. So if one person reads your tweets and decides to put a connection in between whatever you posted, they could come up with what they think is the "story of your life".

I admit, I am guilty of doing that but I am not stupid to not know if a certain post will be offensive or not.

I just find it also funny how people can be oh so friendly online but when they actually meet eye to eye, that "closeness" online suddenly disappears and you instantly realize that you don't really know a thing about this person. I, also, have been guilty of that. :p

In my opinion, Facebook and twitter also took out the element of mystery in getting to know a certain person. Yes, you have met, you have talked, but the moment you go online, you immediately start searching for him/her online in facebook or twitter or wherever. You start knowing somebody from facts in the net, which you are not even sure if those were true.