I chose to be alone..

I spent Christmas day alone.. I was not feeling well by christmas eve, so I just spent most of the time in bed, sleeping.. I was thinking of going to my aunt's place but for some reason, sleep won over and I ended up oversleeping and did not go anymore.. Christmas day, I was alone in the house because I did not go to another yearly celebration at my cousin's place (mother's side).

It may seem so lonely especially with all the Christmas spirit in the air, and the fact that I have been so christmassy for the past few weeks but I spent time reflecting on the things that have happened to me for the past year and the blessings that I have received. I had an alone time with God and with myself..

But it never erased the fact that besides from my "unwellness", I was emotionally unwell, as well. :| Maybe because I really did not have any avenue to let it out so I chose to be quiet nalang. Siguro, some people may say, why I let myself get affected by the circumstances, but sometimes, when you can't really face a situation or at least be civil about it, you just resort to avoiding it and stay quiet.

I'm not going to elaborate on what really bothers me, since it's a very personal issue but at least it will help me to just let out what I really feel about the situation.

I just hope and pray that the next year will be a wonderful one..

December wish list

December. It's that time of year again. Some people may disagree with me, but I definitely feel the Christmas air.. :) I started feeling it when October came. Then it was like, hyped up when I see houses with Christmas lights on. Definitely Christmas.

For some people, it may be difficult to really feel it in the air since we have been going through economic recession. But really, it's not all about the the money or the gifts we're going to get. It's about spending time with your family and giving thanks to Lord for the wonderful blessings of the year (for the skeptics, who believe that they didn't feel any blessings upon them, hey, being alive is blessing alone and you should be thankful for that)

But the real point of this blog is about my wishlist. It's actually my first time to make a wish list. Whenever relatives ask me what I really want for Christmas, I always say "kahit ano" to which they would always reply, "walang nabibili na kahit ano". Well, if I tell them what I really want for Christmas, they would sometimes say it's expensive or out of the budget. (so why ask me pa? :p) hehehe... Any gift is fine with me.. :p

I'm making a wishlist, well, because I want to! :p It doesn't necessarily mean I have to get these for Christmas, I mean, hello.. :p but hey! one can always hope can't I? Who knows, the Lord might give provisions so I can have these things.. hehehehe...